Love is all what you need~

And now I can believe all what you said is right. Thank you Allah :) alhamdulillah.

Thailand

    

Love is a silly game

Wondering............ 

How people can commits to others till the end of their lives?

Is that love?

Last bucket list accomplished

So today is the day

Where one of my best wishes of my 2013 bucket list accomplished

Flash back in time, i see you in our high school, we were wearing an uniform, and our voice is same as children play in a back yard. Days come by months and years. Now we are grown up together.
You know what, my bucket list i'm waiting for this year are be with you in your graduation day and take for our photos there. So, though I couldn't make it, I will always hope you have a great day in your big day.

Congratulation for your graduation

You see, you were the one, the reason I struggle for everything in everyday. 
I really wanna see you happy. When i see you happy, i am also happy.
You will have a new priority after this one, right? 

Don't give up. 

Good luck, and struggle wherever you are. Take care!

So im' closing this book.

Love
Kinanthi Husodo-

12 Oktober 2013

Bismillah ya Allah

Lancarkan jalan kami, berkahi lah hubungan kami. Aamin :)

Remember about old times 

When you are always listening

But you are not be listened

Oh no :"""""""""

X: "Stres banget"
Y: "Aku juga. Kita juga"
X: "Nanti habis kita selese stase bedah kita, kita pacaran ya"
Y: "Ih parah sih kita pacaran kok ga pernah ketemu kenapa"
X: "Hehehehe"
Y: "Ih sedih sih kok ketawa kenapa"
X: "See you soon on june okay?"
Y: .................................

X: "Ayo makan. Sorry ya cuma bs masak ini, maklum"
Y: "Gapapa kin, kamu goreng kaca mulut aja aku makan kok"
X: "Ah sweeeet"
Y: "Hehehehe"
X: "Eh bentar2 itu kok kaya di film habibi-ainun, yang kamu rebus stetoskop aja aku makan"
Y; "Hahahahahaha"
X: ..................... "Ga jadi sweet"

many peple comes...
and the gravity always playing in every situation
Bismillah, mudahkan lah. lancarkan lah
untuk kami...

Bismillah,
Ya Allah i beg you for the best
Accept my apologize if this is a mistake

Yesterday

Almost...
everyday i'm crying
everyday i just seeing your picture and none of my words come out
everyday i wanna see you, though it was just by dream
everyday i see you changes, and your feeling changes
everyday i back my tears up when i hear your voice and is not the same as your voice, you used to be
Accept my apologize if this is a mistake

well, what can i do
He never listened, and always deny for every words by my mouth
He pushed me to ignore
He pushed me to say 'let's be apart'

He pushed me to hate him

He pushed me to think that he is not the one

He pushed me to say 'let's break up'

He pushed me to 'single hearted'
tought it were not by the words, then his eyes showed
Accept my apologize if this is a mistake

well, what can i do
if he told you that 'i think we should end for this'
if he told you that 'if  i call you then the descision will changes'
if he told you 'this is just the same situation with the old times' 

If he told you 'have to be single hearted'

if he told you 'i hope this is the best for us'

Those words that come out from him were a knife for me. And I saw him with my courage I just backed up my tears to not drop down suddenly and made my rigid face so even my heart was broken too much and the pain slowly killed.
Accept my apologize if this is a mistake

well what can i do
my brains come insane, my feelings is deny about the memories
i've to said that ' yes maybe it is over'
well a text message is so easy to write,
but my brain did not say the same things
and my memories repeated and said to the opposite of what i wanted
Accept my apologize if this is a mistake

When he said it was over, I stopped breathing. 
I could not gather my thoughts. I felt like it wasn't happening, but it was. 
It was surreal. My stomach turned up side down, my mouth was dry, I was sweating, my heart trembling. Out of intense denial, I said to him 'yes'

So when it's over
So i've tried to call, may be its the last time to say goodbye
and again
iback my tears up, and make a fake 'tough girl' when i hear his voice and my tears just go down and go down, and my heart repeated 'Ya Allah reinforced me' in many times
Breaking up is hard to do. Much like the passing away of a loved one

no, this is not a goodbye call.. 
i know i will hear his voice again
in my graduation
in his birthday
in my birthday
and in his graduation
well i know for sure in that day, i need an exrtra courage, i will back my tears up again when my voice turns out to normal as tough girl to be, but my tears just go down... and i will take for 'Allah name' in many times

Well, when it is over... i would like to say
Thank you. 

Cinta memang beragam macam tapi mungkin memang tidak semua bisa bersama.

Mungkin ini hanya sebuah pelajaran ilmu ikhlas dalam hidup di dunia. 
Maka darinya...

Terimakasih Allah untuk mengajarkan bagaimana ikhlas, ikhlas untuk melepaskan dan merelakan sesuatu yang kita sayangi dalam hidup ini.
Mungkin bukan aku, dan kamu yang salah. Tapi Allah belum membuat waktu yang tepat untuk kita bisa bersama, waktu belum mempertemukan kita dengan baik. Allah mungkin sedang merencanakan waktu yang tepat untuk kita. Dengan lebih memperbaiki diri kita, mungkin adalah salah satu cara nya...
Apa yang direncana kan oleh-Nya percaya lah ini yang terbaik.
Sampai jumpa di lain waktu yang lebih tepat dari Allah untuk kita.

Kalau ini salah, sekali lagi... Maaf

semoga tuhan memaafkan.
I love you, and always.

Kinanthi Husodo-

This is the song for, you and me.........

I'd like to say we gave it a try
I'd like to blame it all on life
Maybe we just weren't right, but that's a lie, that's a lie

And we can deny it as much as we want
But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough
So close to being in love
If I would have known that you wanted me
The way I wanted you
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each other's arms

And we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough

If I could change the world overnight
There'd be no such thing as goodbye
You'd be standing right where you were
And we'd get the chance we deserve

Try to deny it as much as you want
But in time our feelings will show

'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows

Almost, almost is never enough (is never enough, babe)
We were so close to being in love (so close)
If I would have known that you wanted me the way I wanted you, babe
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each other's arms

And we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough

When you are alone and have no friends to share... Mom calls.

Mom: "Are you ockay?"
Me: "Mom, do you know the stage of life?"
Mom: "So what is your stage now?"
Me: "Last year I thought that thesis was the hardest part of life. I passed that. Now, the clinic is moreeeeeee crazy and fuckmess me down. It's hard, really really really. I think it makes me down. Level down"
Mom: "Well, whatever happens, don't give up easily!"
Me: "Well it's hard for me now"
Mom: "I know you.. the most stubborn daughter that I have, who never give up about what you want most! Beat!"
Me: "I love you to the moon"
Mom: "And back"

Ketika pasangan menyerah, sedih sekali mendengar nya :""""""

Bismillah, selalu bersyukur dan jangan cepat menyerah :")
kuatkan kami, doaku selalu, semoga Allah menguatkan mu dan meniadakan keraguan mu.
Amin ya Allah amin.

My best bucket list in 2013

1. Ujian Sidang Skripsi
Take my boy friend to Sby. Photooos.
2. Lulus yudisium Sarjana S.KG
Cumlaaaaaude!
3. Wisuda okin. Surabaya.
Take my family and my boyfirend there. Take for our 7 years togetherness, Take for our first graduation photos there.
4. Klinik BM lancar
Pasien lancar
5. Klinik PKL lancar
Tempat enak, liburaaaaan!
6. Klinik Radiologi lancar
Nyicil requirement
7. Tabungan solat puasa senin kamis
Semua lancar. Amin amin ya Allah.
8. Klinik Pedo lancar
9. Wisuda caca. Bandung
Take for our second graduation day photos. I will be a proud girlfriend.
10. Klinik Oral Medicine lancar
11. Klinik Periodonsia lancar
12. 7 years going 8 years and still counting. And archidenta :")

Amin amin ya Rabbal Alamin
Klinik nya..... bersakit sakit dahulu bersenang senang kemudian yaaah :""")

Kinanthi Husodo-

Today is the day

is it still love? when you always like give up and doubt of me and our story.

So when love is not you, i guess
:")

Last feb 2013

Bismillah ya Allah ujian Pradik

Bismillah semoga ini yang terbaik.
Untuk saya kamu dan kita

My mom is my everything
I like to share all my stories

Dan sedih nya banyak orang yang melupakan esensi mengungkapkan rasa sayang, dari hal-hal kecil lainnya di luar terlihat langsung.
Sedih.

9 feb

I met him after 8 years
It was like an awkward
Yes it was

sedih sekali, namun mungkin lebih indah ketika pada kenyataannya mengetahui
bahwa kita tidak diterima apa adanya selama ini dan kemudian hari,
tuhan mungkin menciptakan seseorang yang akan menerimanya,
dan bukan dia. mungkin. semoga
bismillah sahalallah.

It's difficult to understand but think through all happen like you stand by yourself. You can do it! Yes I can!

And it's completely sad when you lost your friend to talk and share, since something happened and changed everything. What should you do?

It's completely stress when you open your between and all the things changed differently. Iklas :")

jika kata kata bukan tulisan dan ucapan
maka semuanya sudah terbaca dari awal
benar kan
maka,
lupakan
kali ini dan seterusnya
lupakan, i deserve better :)

halo Arlan I need you :"

I wish I can take my prayers to you, God :)

Somehow sering bgt bayangin
Pengen punya pacar yg baik
Pengertian, perhatian, dan tentu peduli terhadap kita dan keluarga kita.
Hmm kapan ya
Kapan
Kapan
Kapan

Kapan kapan jawab orang
Sebelumnya perbaiki diri dulu ya mungkin, semoga lah
#curhatandesperadomahasiswatingkatakhir

:)

Love always finds a way every single time once we learn to trust our heart and look inside. –Cheetah

Alhamdulillaaaaaaaaaahirahmanirahim ya Allah terimakasih sudah menemukan ku dengan seorang malaikat yang mencerahkan hari ini dan (mungkin) masa depan ku terimakasih terimakasih terimakasih untuk hari ini :"""""""""")

Salah dimana nya sih?

Besok itu jadwal ujian perbaikan MATA
tapi nilai di cybercampus belom keluar sama sekali ............................
masih inget soal absurd sepanjang per UASan di FKG yaitu

"Berapa jumlah pupil mata tokek?"
a. Satu
b. Banyak
c. Tiga
d. Dua

..................................................................

through the rain

When you get caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved

But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is

I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close
Don't be afraid, there's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you, you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain, I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
As I live once again
And I live one more day
I can make it through the rain
Yes you can
You gonna make it through the rain

-_______-

mama dateng ke surabaya...
hal yang pertama dilakuin adalah pasti, ngomentarin anak nya udah kaya ga liat lamaaaa banget

Mama: "Dek kok item?"
Me: ..........................
Mama: "Sini liat dulu wajahnya, ih kok jerawatan?"
Me: ..........................
Mama: "Kok gendut sih"
Me: "Buseeet dah ga ada bagus bagus nya yeee ma kayaknya?"
Mama: "Gini kok kata tarsih yang ke rumah ganti ganti"
Me: !$@%^#&#&#&*#* "Bye aja maah bye"

I suppose it could be true that there was a love story where there was no conflict between the lovers, but there would be larger conflict, . But for it to be a story , there would have to be some kind of conflict. I have no problem with being proved wrong, I minimize conflict when I write. Whereas in life, the conflict may be more pronounced, the conditions more severe, in the stories I write, it is smoother. It would seem to me, how I define it, that any story you'd like to be stimulated by would contain conflict of some kind. I find it very difficult to conceive of conflict as a thing in of itself..


We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home. Or we wont give up the conflict, so would like live in good ending for the best way


i hope it ends soon, so my brain and heart can think clearly enough, not like yesterday or the day before, or today


Kinanthi Husodo-

pernah denger lagu 'lucky man' mocca ga?
lucu bangeeeeeeet, liat nya itu jadi ngebayangin
pengen banget tinggal di luar negri yang ada taman nya banyak,
trus punya anak disana, anak nya pas masih kecil diajak main ke taman hijau deket rumah
sambil didandanin pake rok, pake bando, pake sepatu ballet,
trus direkam pake handycam
ah :")
kalo mau itung itung selesai kuliah...
masih tahun 2014 akhir selesai, tahun 2015 harus sekolah lagi,
pengen nya sih di jakarta sambil magang, tapi lebih pengennya lagi sih sekolah diluar
kalo bisa yang banyak tamaaaan. Amin ya robbal alamiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin :"""""""""""""""""")

diantara hari hari menyenangkan akan selalu ada hari APES
welcoming today in first month of 2013 hari apes
:"""""""" where is mom, dad, and sister?
home soooooooooon i need you

sometimes that i can't explain what i feel why i feel inside, a lot
where is mom i need you

Dua manusia di persimpangan

Dua manusia di persimpangan
Sebuah cerita terpenggal dari sebuah buku yang berada di halaman tengah
Dua manusia di persimpangan

Satu nya ingin menyelesaikan sebuah buku dengan baik
Kemudian,
Satu nya ingin menutup sebuah buku itu

Keraguan menyigap dari bilik dimana sebuah masa lalu menuai asa
Dimana sebuah masa depan tak urung terlihat
Kedua manusia ingin segera bersama melihat isi akhir buku,
namun keduanya masih bertemu di persimpangan
Kemudian di antaranya masih ragu
atau mungkin yakin
takut berjalan bahkan takut berhenti

Takut melanjutkan
juga
Takut mengakhiri

Persimpangan adalah sebuah titik darimana kita bisa mengetahui,
dimana akhir dari sebuah jalan yang kita tuju..
Kamilah dua manusia di persimpangan
Hanya kepercayaan dan keyakinan yang bisa membawa kami ke jalan itu

Dua manusia di persimpangan pun sesungguh nya tau,
dimana dan apa yang mereka ingin tuju sesungguhnya
namun, tak urung saling menunggu di antaranya untuk mengungkapkan terlebih dahulu
karena mata, rasa, dan hati
karena rasa cinta
tidak mungkin pernah berbohong, di atas logika

Kinanthi Husodo-

That’s how this story ends
As the day passes by

Thankyou guys (6-7 Januari 2013)

bisa melewati sidang di Bedah Mulut dengan proses yang berat 

jatuh bangun setahun, down, nangis, stress, capek, sakit merupakan pengalaman

yang tidak bisa dibeli kapanpun dimanapun

dan ini adalah merupakan

pencapaian terhebat yang pernah saya lakukan seumur hidup

selanjutnya berpikir klinik dan masa depan :)

terimakasih ya Allah untuk hari ini, terimakasih dan alhamdulillah

nb: ini postingan gabungan tanggal 7 ke tanggal 6.

7 Januari 2013. Best moment pembuka tahun 2013